ME, MYSELF & I

2005-05-26T03:30:00.000-07:00

Tears is rolling down my face... Wat had happen... this is wat... It is understood that i love ENERGY ALOT! ESPEACIALLY AH DI... I got a news today... AH DI back injury had make him decide to leave ENERGY... Mean the coming album will be his last album with ENERGY. And the incoming Concert will be my last time seeing him... Why must he leave...I just don understand... I just cant accept... ENERGY motivated my life... Ah Di's voice let me carry on my life... Let me have the courage to sing out my voice....
I BEG... DONT GO!

You know wat!

2005-04-16T08:19:00.000-07:00

OH MY GOD! I saw ENERGY today... In the morning, I went to quene for a event tat start 6.30 p.m... Haha... wat is more surpirse you is ENERGY CONCERT tixs start selling today... I call sistic at around 11 a.m... And the first two expensive price sold out and the cheapest also sold out! Is like less than few hours tat it start to sell... And SISTIC made a very big mistake... ENERGY CONCERT name in CHINESE is call zai jian SINGAPORE... SISTIC take it as GOODBYE ENERGY... Like it is their last concert... But lucky... ENERGY say is hi singapore, we meet again... At tatmoment I almost burst out tears... And my poor ah di... Back injuries come back when he go for army... and cause him not to dance for a long time... Hope he get well soon... Sigh... I wonder should i stay at home to watch ENERGY in show or go and watch the basketball match at toa payoh stadium... Still cant decided....

84 MORE DAYS TO THE CONCERT

2005-04-14T06:25:00.000-07:00

Wednesday, April 13, 2005 7:58:00 PM Subject: sure is a rich guy.... Message: Jin and I are best fren..we do anythingthatbest fren do...One day, i realised that ilovehim...soi decided to confessed this feeling to himonenitewhere we camp with other frens. he saidyes,hewould be my boyfren..So we went on like other gurlfrenboyfren'slifedoes.Watch movie, walk in park, eat together,go tobeach....but life's not fun as when we arestillbestfren....he also doesnt talk much, or act likewearebest fren, close and share everything...forme,heisnot a suitable or loving boyfren...but ikeptquitelythis on my mind...But since the day he bcome my boyfren,heeverysingle day would give me a small teddybear...Atfirst i thought it was lovely, but till now, iwonderwhy he would gav me this...One day, i was walking alone at a park.Then isawJin talking to another gurl. I walk towardhimand ioverheard him saying "i love u' to thegurl. Iwasreally angry and i run home coz Jin nevertoldmehe love me all the time we been boyfrenandgurlfren.Then, at midnite that day, he come to myhouseand i open the door. He just passed metheteddybear that he used to give me everydayandsaidsorry coz i didn't giv u this today. i wasreallyangryand i shouted at him,"Why u alwiz giv me this crap? All i wantohearform u is, I love you, that's it, izit toohard???"Jin kept quiet. He took my hand andplace theteddy bear on my palm and left away..ithrowtheteddy bear into my cupboard.The next day, Jin asked me out. We meetatbusstop near my house..i walk there and thenhejustgav me a big teddy bear,my anger wasstill inhighposition,and i throw the teddy to themiddle oftheroad. He keep quiet and then he go to themiddleofthe road and pick the teddy up. He dintrealiseatruck was coming towards him. I shoutedathimnot to pick it up and he was about look atme,and...........................*Bang*."JIN!!!!!!" I shouted...the nex minute hewaslyingonthe road, covered with blood. He was senttothehospital but it's too late...i losthim...forever....after attended his funeral, i went backhomeand ihug all the teddy bear he gav me sincetheday webcome gfbf...i counted the teddy bearone byone...1...2....3...101...230....300..364...and thelastteddy bear he gave covered with hisbloodwas the365th...it had been a year we bcomebfgf...iqueezethe teddy bear with the tearsflow....suddenly...*I love you~**I love you~*i was shocked..i looked at the teddys...anditakeone of it, and try to press on his tummy..*I love you~*i tried each and every teddy bear he gavme...*I love you~**I love you~**I love you~**I love you~**I love you~**I love you~*......................and the biggest and the last teddy bearJingavme, I squeeze his big tummy...*felicia, today is our very first anniverybeingbfgfafter a year.....i always love you,yesterday,today,and forever........I love you....*i dropped the teddy bear........i never realised that Jin had actually toldmethosewords..every single day....till today...i slowly picked the teddy and i whisperedtotheteddy's ear.."i love you too, Jin..and i always did........" This is a very touching story... even i don know is it true a not but pls cherish those you love...

Oh my god!

2005-04-08T18:18:00.000-07:00

It was my school spots day... He was in the same house as me... He got alot of event like running... Than I was sort of peeking him the whole session... Whao wat a wonderful day... He was quite good...Hmmm... Hai Ya... He got seond for mostly all the race... Ai... so sad... Than I was at one of the race... He was sitting on the top steps... Than I was waiting at the grass path... On the ground... I was there staring at him... Than around three to four he look at me... Is I don know wat to do... And look away... I try to get his attention by looking at me... But I jus think it was stupid... I even try to use my handphone o take his photo... Tats was even stupid... But loving someone secretly is a very special feeling... you may lose it in just a second! Treasure the moment! =p

it look like drama...

2005-04-06T15:32:00.000-07:00

I reach school... my eyes was so irritated. as I was wearing my contact lense... I went to my school toilet, to wash my eyes... when i come out... I meet him... I just cant believe... My eyes was so wet, as the contact lense keep make me drop tears... So wat he saw wasa girl crying... I don know wat to react, just act cool and walk away... Oh my god.... This type of scene oni will happen in show... Does tat mean me and him is fated? Who know oni HE know...

How super he is!

2005-04-03T21:00:00.000-07:00

I still remember that day... How it started... It was a post exam activity... He was playing basketball by representing the house... I was just beside, seeing him playing...Whao... You cant imagine how good is him?! Whao...... slam down the ball... 3 pointed shot.... What really amaze and made him become my idol is..... Some one from the team shot a ball but it didnt went in... He jump up...And at that moment he look like he freeze uin the air and there goes... The ball went in... Whao! It is like the animation slam dunk! Can you imagine that... And now he is in our nation team! It is so cool... From that day on, he is my idol! Maybe a bit more than idol la... hehe... and he look abit like my fav group energy de KUNDA! So cool of him! ah... I'm crazy....

Don't know wats wrong with me?

2005-03-28T19:00:00.000-08:00

I went out with my frenz yesterday... She was with her boyfrenz... How lovely... But I was alone... How i wish there is SOMEONE for me? everywhere i saw was couples... I have a thinking ... I want to be in love... THan i saw ppl with diff size and shape that have boyfrenz that look quite handsome... Now boys they care wats inside but not outside... I wish to grow up faster, to poly... Maybe there is where it will come... Sigh.......my turn will come... When will it come? No one knows... I just have to wait.......

I feel irritated!

2005-03-19T04:52:00.000-08:00

I have always feel irritated... Like this few week, there was this guy i know... I actually don know him much.... He always ask question from his problem and always want me to help him solve... i give him some views and this carry on a long time... Lately i thought giving him my handphone no. would be alright.... But I was wrong, he take advantage of it and keep sms me with very stupid and irritating stuff... Until now, I don even dare to reply his msg... Now! As he was from my school, a ex student, he say he want to meet up... I'm not sure wat to do... I feel very scare and I don like tis kind of feeling...... Ah!!!!!!!!!!!! I don like this!!!!!!!!!

Now than I realise...

2005-03-05T23:29:00.000-08:00

Its been a long time since i post... It was really a nice yr for me ahead... From the starting of the year, i thought i like this guy... Until today... someone tell me thats might is not love... he may just is a idol to me... And the other one thatis close to me maybe the one i always wanted to be with... How... Wat do i do now? It is like so sudden.. Or not... actually i know it before... but i bluff myself.... There are lot of thing that can explain...like...... when a girl is very close to him or talking to him... adn he look happy or wat... i feel uneasy... and now i know he got problem... but i cant help him i really don know how to say... tell him i can be the one for him... or.... wat should i do.........

I Fall In Love With Someone That I Shouldnt Have

2004-10-29T13:24:00.000-07:00

Shock seeing the title... He is not my teacher nor my family member... He is jus a frenz of mine... He is a veri good friend of mine... We always play around... talk... No one will think think tat I like him or even myself I don't think that I like him... Until a day we were working ... I always hope that he is around my side... And when I saw him with the girl which ppl say they are in love... I got jealous and sort of angry... I wanted to call him but I went away! I don know do he like me anot... As his caring for me is as a very good friend...

I don dare to ask him... as I scare he will run away...Or Should I keep it in my heart till the end of my life?

Who knows?

Am I Being Fool?

2004-09-10T08:44:00.000-07:00

I'm like a fool... I'm have been sending message to a guy... But I don know who is he... As in friendster... He say he is KUNDA... One of energy member... So I have been sending msg to him... Write testimonial to him... He did post on his page... He didn reply... Wat is tat? I really look like a fool.... wondering is he the real one or not? At least if he say he is the one or not the one... At least i know... But WHAT IS THIS! I'm really veri sad... And in another sense veri angry.... Does that mean all the artist is like that...?

Friend? Lover?

2004-08-22T12:41:00.000-07:00

i having loving a guy for around one year plus until we didn see each other... i don know do i still love him now... i'm veri confuse...should i take him as normal friend or i still have love for him... i jus don know... i don know do he know i like him... but we are still friend... is it better to be friend than lover... maybe... as friend can be forever... if he really got girlfriend i would bless him as he found his happines... it isn't easy to jus bless him but if he can have his happiness i don realli mind alot... but really bless him... want to know who is him...? you really want to know who he is? this is the clue... ---- ------- this is the letter go and find yourself... hehe...

energy rox

2004-08-19T01:33:00.000-07:00

i'm a very huge fans of energy... watever news i'll be the first to knoe... i'm really mad about them........ they are so shuai... no one can replace them... not even the person i like... heyz want to knoe who i like... but too bad... i can't tell you... hehe... as i don't even knoe who i like.......... energy you always the best....!